Really fuckin’ angry

I’ve been having a hard time of it on livejournal lately. Who know joining Otherkin (the community) would be so filled with drama. Mostly I’ve been given a hard time for believing in the validity of Otakukin (that’s ‘kin who believe they are the incarnations of fictional characters) The Otherkin (who believe they are the incarnations of dragons, elves, etcetera) have a hard time believing that someone might be the reincarnation of Squall Leonheart or Harry Potter. I guess they think it’s the equivalent of Elven Princess Syndrome It looks egotistical.

My take on it is that if it’s all down to multiple universes then what exactly is the problem? Just because the mythos that Otakukin come from haven’t been established for a thousand years like Otherkin ones, doesn’t mean a thing. Things like books and movies have changed the way we learn our mythology. Just because its not oral tradition doesn’t mean its invalid. I don’t doubt that in a thousand years time Harry Potter will be as much of a mythic hero as King Arthur.

But, of course, that’s their business, if they want to be all hypocritical that’s fine with me. After all, it doesn’t really have an effect on me.

No, what really steamed me was when crazymaxwell decided to devote a post to basically, publicly denounce and insult me. And Otakukin.

You see, I’m a closet Otakukin. I felt that was the safest kind of otakukin to be, because while other people laugh at and are mean to Otherkin, OTHERKIN laugh at and are mean to Otakukin (not ALL of them mind you, just the vocal majority). And, since I really wanted to get along with the Otherkin, I didn’t bring it up.

I’ve never brought it up on my personal LJ either, because I don’t want my friends (my real friends, not specifically everyone of my lj friend list) to think I am some major weirdo. More than they already do, anyway.

Before now the only place I’ve mentioned it is on the Otakin community, specifically. Apparently that was not the ‘safe zone’ I thought it to be, because Maxwell, in his post on Otherkin ( here ) quotes my post and proceeds to either insinuate, or state outright that I, personally, am:

‘Stupid’
‘wapanese’
‘making an ass of myself’
‘crapping on [his] internet’
immature
an attention whore
self important and pompous

(for the record I won’t contradict the last one)

and then there are the replies.

It makes me wish I’d never used the word ‘otherkin’ in my journal. It makes me long for the days when I was alone in my beliefs. Because apparently I still am.

But I’ll be damned if I’m going to shut up about it now, because that’s exactly what trolls are aiming at when they do shit like that. They want you to get off ‘their’ Internet.

Well guess what. It’s a free internet. I’m not going anywhere, and I will continue to post my ‘babbling’ as I see fit, unless I am banned from the community. Somehow, if Crazy Maxwell is still there, I really doubt that’s going to be any time soon.

So yes. Fine. Its true. I believe, not only am I a ‘demon’ of otherworldly origin, I am in fact Xelloss, from the world of slayers. I don’t care if you believe it, I belive it enough for at least two people.

No I will not justify these beliefs to you. You can go ahead and say I’m not evil enough, or call me a loony, or say I’m obsessed, or seeking attention. That’s your own business. Bring it on. I love arguing.

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