ARRRRRG. I can’t take all this BS. First more stupid internet drama, which, while annoying, I have learened how to handle.
But now, my family is going into one of it’s psychotic phases again (dad and Trevor spent all day yesterday screaming at each other, and, for a little while, at me) and dad just had to bring up a particularly sensitive subject afterwards, when he was trying to make my bastard of a little brother feel better. He said some things that were really hurtful to me, not even intending them to be, and after I went away crying, he came after me and wanted to know what was wrong, and I was apparently OUT OF MY MIND enough to actually tell him why I was crying.
So yeah, I actually ended up telling my dad that I hated being female. I can just tell this is going to come back and bite me in the ass. Probably because he’ll tell mom and she’ll feel like she failed as a parent or some shit like that.
Oh, and also, their cutting my already sparse hours at work. I knew it was too good to last. Table waiting, here I come.
And, to top it all off, my bf thinks I’m ignoring him.
And one thing I forgot, Dad’s forbidden me from sitting on anything but the floor in the livingroom, because he says I’m so fat I’m breaking his furniture.
What a wonderful, fucking week. And its only Tuesday.