Family

My family has apparently decided that its appropriate to call me up and involve me when they are having their fights now. My dad decided the other night to call me up, ask if he could come over, in the most clipped tone ever, and then just hang up when I asked him what was going on. THIS is what I MOVED OUT to AVOID. Argh.

Managing

I managed to work up the nerve to talk to mom about moving on our drive into work this morning. I had been planning to talk to her about it when we went to the laundromat, but she kept putting it off. Honestly, I ended up doing that “being deliberately quiet until she asks you what’s wrong” thing. I mostly told her the truth, though I did emphasize that I wanted to leave so I…

Hardship

Its been a difficult couple of weeks. I thought with my brother home from the hospital, I might be able to enjoy some pleasant time at home. I thought “Well, he’s still sick. Of course mom and dad will walk on egg shells around him so he won’t throw a fit”. Of course I was wrong. At some points my father seems to be going absolutely out of his way to torment my brother. This…

So. Remember the “heinous game of telephone”? Yeah. It turns out my aunt never woke up. I don’t even know why I was told that. They’re taking her off life support tomorrow. Unless something changes, this is my last post on the subject. -David

RE: Our Aunt

Hi guys. Thank you for all the love and support, it really helps. I’m told she’s awake now, but on life support. Unfortunately, since she’s across the US from us, all of our info is filtered through multiple relatives in a heinous game of telephone. But what I’m hear is she’s stable for the moment. Thanks again, everyone. -D

My gender is not something you get to dictate

I am so, so tired of my parents telling us we should wear skirts and dress as a woman. This may be a female body, but there are almost NO women in it. David is explicitly, absolutely a man (albeit not the most manly man), I, Mordax, have no gender, leaning towards presenting as male; plus the cavalcade of occasional male headmates we’ve got. I’ve got plenty of neuroses, dad, you don’t have to say…

Citical Success (Diplomacy)

I don’t know how I managed it, but somehow I picked exactly the time, and exactly the words to convince Trevor to quit coming to D&D without getting angry at me, or anyone else. I suspect it was a once in a lifetime event. So, today was my first ever D&D session without Trevor. And it was AWESOME. Even though 2 party members were missing and one of them stole all our gold to get…

GODDAMNIT TREVOR!!!!!!!

You ruined my last D&D group, I will not have you ruin this one too! Guys, what do I do about this? For those of you who don’t know, my brother is a raving unstoppable beast with the mentality of a five year old. He’s going to go fucking HULK when I show him this. What can I do? This is the email I just got from my DM. Hi Greer, XP rewards are small…

You *cannot* just take my stuff

This is something my younger brother has done since we were kids and never stopped. Whenever I have something that he wants he just feels free to come into my room, whether I’m home or not, and take it! And then afterward he has the nerve to feel possessive over it! I haven’t seen my Wii since the day I bought it because its in his room and he’s not even playing it because he’s…

So my brother badgers me into watching something with him And then doesn’t know what to watch. Then when we finally settle on something, he totally ignores what we’re watching and chatters on about something unrelated. *sigh*

Why can’t I just be okay? There’s nothing wrong, but I just feel… bad. Like my whole life is such a fucking waste. What am I doing? Why do I hurt so bad? Why do I have to be so afraid? Christmas is coming. I love Christmas, but my family always manages to mess it up. They mess everything up. I just want to be alone. Mordax is fine. I wish I could just not…

I hate the term ‘tools of the patriarchy’ but my dad is a patriarchal tool. On the way to work today I had to endure yet another lecture on how the fact that I wear mens clothes is a sign of society destroying itself, and how I’m ruining my chances at life. Whatever that means. On top of that he reiterated that not having babies is triples my chances of breast cancer. And then I…

The main difference between A and I? A is a complainer, and I am not. And when A bitches and bitches and bitches to me, I just want to say ‘SHUT UP, your suffering is not special, you are not put upon, the world is not out to get you!’ Hel and high water, please, just take a chill pill. -D

Of course it’s pouring when i want to go out

Of course its pouring and miserable outside when its my day off and I want to go somewhere. Its only nice when I have work all fucking day. I wanted to go to the mall and hang out today. I’m tired of just wasting every single day of my life in front of this god damned computer. I like the net, sure, but occasionally I want to go out and do something. Not even necissarily…

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